Words that should not be uttered
Expressions that are bound to be mistaken
Are you not alienating yourself further?
Creating distance where silence wouldn’t?
Don’t you think you’d do better
by keeping mum?
But I was always
And rather happily
I seemed to mingle
but not completely
I was great friends
but there was always a line
Inside which lived me –
Happy in the ambiguity
of a lack of definition!
I have no desire
To conform and achieve a ‘better’
That doesn’t feel warm and true
That lacks the serenity of sadness
The warm red of overwhelm
Of love, that translucent hue
I debate if it’s aqua marine or baby powder blue?
If you are meant to understand
Only then – can you.
And the one who understands
is the only one who will.
He would read beyond the stubborn stupidity
of ‘telling’ –
The innocent lack of intention
That one is spreading goodness not anger,
That it is good to be affected by affection
That it is selfless and un-demanding
One hasn’t understood –
if one is pressured.
And one who doesn’t –
Meant to be!
either way –
From the chains of pretending to be
Anything that I am not.
But will there be more suffering?
Won’t it leave me distraught,
lonely and sad?
Will I, later, not feel really, really bad?
If I am meant to – I will
Or else I will learn something or another
Someone is meant to understand in time
For the rest of the world – I might become a bother
But then someday I will understand
If another path must be chosen….
And I will leave people alone
Meditate till I am frozen..
But till then
May my choices be an impulse
May I be flooded with overwhelm
May I know always, how to love
May there never be a fence!
May 26th 2015 FB